today most of my time i was keep thinking of him, dnt knw why ths feeling comes again. i alrdy try my best to avoiding him, even tho a bit. hurmm myb ths wht love is call. i grown up without knowing any meaning of love and now im alrdy been bustard by the same words which is LOVE. somehow i feel like its better if dont know wht is love in my life. how ever people do grower and learn more about real things in their life so do i. in my pathetic life it begin when i was 14 y/o i got caught my feeling towards ths one boy tht same age with me.but then our relationship just strong fr a 3 months.yala its too young too love tht time.then my 2nd crush was in the same year.tht guy was a year older than me.we broke up bcs of he n his fmly got to move on from shah alam.since tht we're not close like bfr.by the end of year i met ths one guy which is my fnds brother.he 2years older than mine.ths was the shortest realtionship ever heard.about 2 weeks we together then broke up bcs he just cant frgt his ex-gf.so tht i move on.about 10 months im holding a single mingle tittle.haha suddenly again i met ths one guy tht is 17 tht time n im 15.he is actly frnds with my bestiey.about a month later he took my heart n we're officially concider as couple.tht time i felt like im in heaven of love with him cz anything tht happen we through it together no matter wht.the biggest mistake tht happen is bcs of my family cant accept him fr some other reason.but we built promises tht time, to still go through our relationship.when our 1st annvsry we clbrt it at sbg parade.tht time he was working at baskin robin then from home i cook fr him, fried rice je (his fav)hee.then we eat together.so do the move till 2nd annvsry we celeb at penang tht was the fckn blast memoirs tht i really cant frgt till now. aftr 2 years and half the relationship become more complicated till ths one day we fight till no ends n ending with damn words "clash".strting frm tht worst day my life no longer full cover with happines like bfr.im forcing my self in everything tht i done.then without my knowing its a year alrdy n currently im proud of my self cz dh x igt lg kt dia.yeay.hey its damn hard okay!then i knew ths guy which schoolin at sec9 n same age with me.about 1 month we frnd n he ask me fr being his gf then i just okay with tht.hurmm its a boring relation actly.durgghh break up again a month afta tht.i frgt everything about love n gap time of tht i fullfill with my work n frnd, famly too.hee. arnd dec 07 i knew one ths guy which is 19/20 tht time. i actly alrdy know him bfr.but never talk.suddenly my heart get stuck with him.on 1st jan 08 he approach me to be his partner in his life.i keep thinking fr a while.later i accept it with full of happines n excited feeling.i dont know why my relation with him so fckn diffrnt than others.bersabar was the main thngs tht i just meet.he lost fr a couple months then i still waiting again its happen and im still waiting with love from deep inside my heart.tht shit thgs not happen just once but so many time.till one day i cant handle it anymore n im asking fr a broke up .now im free of it but he still waiting on me.even tho i do love him but let he change him self 1st then build bck the relation,insyallah. LET THE FLOW LEAD THE WAY..
